-Camila a miracle sent from god

Camila reminds me of the fluffy dinosaur I used to hug at night

Cheeks filled with  marshmallows

stuffed on each side

Her round eyes big and bright

they lighten up life

pointy ears too big

arms and thighs hidden by baby fat

Bald spot by the blanket

on which she rests her head

My dark hand creates gentle ripples

in her light palm

As she grips my fingers for support

We are so different

In age, color, and experience in this world.

Yet she is the most important human

In my life

My cousin once asked

Between your older sister and Cami,

who would you choose to live?

My immediate reaction was Cami

You would ask me why?

Why?

She was unexpected in our lives

Difficulties in the hospital,

almost losing her and my mother

It comes to mind very often,

how they could have been gone in an instant

If so there would’ve been a dark spot in my heart for not seeing her precious face

These past seven  months

have been my most happiest

Her hand asking reaching out to me

Leaning towards me

from my father’s arms

Smiling when I pull her close

Her cheeks getting fluffy as mine melt into them

I wonder how life at home would be

without her

She will soon grow

Sooner than later time will fly

Shes will be able to do things she cannot yet do

She will go to school

ride a bike

Talk

Laugh

and love.

As the years go on,

we will grow together.

Maybe she’ll read this someday.

That's something I will look forward to.